I used to absolutely despise my body.
I was extremely critical and disgusted by everything about it.
The thoughts in my head were worse than a bullies.
But a few years ago it hit me… This is not the person I want to be.
I want to be someone who is in love with themselves, and their body.
Someone who lives their life to the max, even if I don't look like a model.
For so long I had held myself back because of my body. I didn't want to go out, or buy cute clothes, or wear short, and especially not wear bathers.
Once I realised how much hating my body was impacting my life I decided to make some big changes.
I knew that if I ever wanted to love my body, it had to be now, not "later when I lose weight".
Since making this decision, I have left comfort zones that I never even thought were possible.
The amount of comfort and love I have with my body now is much more than I ever anticipated to have.
I never ever thought I would be confident in a bikini especially as a plus size girl. Heck, even when I was very thin, I would have never been caught dead in a bikini.
It took years of learning and understanding but I'm proud to say I am now truly in love with my body, and all the things I saw as 'flaws' before and now just 'me'.